Last weekend I had the opportunity to run my first half-marathon since my youngest child was born. It was actually my first in several years, as I had focused on the marathon distance for the couple of years before she came along. A race is always an adventure and this one proved no different—I spiked a fever the night before, we had to detour around an interstate shutdown on the way there, and the course went through some last minute changes due to flooding of the Chattahoochee River. But at 8 AM my friends Katie, Stephen and I lined up with about 1100 other runners in downtown Columbus, Georgia, to complete the 13.1 mile trek.
 
Now, running and I have a ‘for better or worse’ relationship, and for the last two years we have been in a ‘for worse’ rut. Due to an injury, the pregnancy, and a baby who doesn’t sleep well, I feel like I’m doing more slogging than running at the moment. But I had a plan for this race and I was excited to execute it. I would be solidly middle-to-back-of the pack, chasing the 2:20 pace group and intentionally reserving energy to run slightly faster in the second half of the race. The first six miles went by uneventfully as we ran through a spitting rain from downtown Columbus to the river and along a trail headed south until the turnaround point. The trail was still muddy, and the scenery was nondescript. A few miles in we slower runners got to see the leaders of the race go by, and that is always energizing to me. They are amazing to watch, both in form and in strategy as they challenge each other to run fast but not peter out. At this point I was doing okay--not loving the run, but resigned to doing the distance.
 
Then, after seeing Katie pass me headed north, spotting Stephen just before making the turn, and running back through the worst of the mud on the trail, I spotted an older gentleman sitting on a bench, covered in mud. He was with a younger man who seemed concerned. I ran past, slowed, and turned around. “Do you need a phone?” Yes, they did. The older man had fallen and thought he’d dislocated his shoulder. Long story short, I called 911, hollered at a pace group leader to tell race officials we needed help, and waited till the medical staff arrived.  I told the EMS operator where to meet them, hung up, and started back to running.
 
This all took no longer than 7 minutes by my calculation, but in that short time I got pretty cold, and it was just long enough that my running mojo was just…shot. The 2:20 pace group was long gone. It was the 2:30 pacer I’d asked to help us, and they were far in the distance as well. My goal was gone, and I’d lost my motivation. I spent miles talking myself out of quitting the race. Finishing would be winning today.
 
But then I noticed something. I was now solidly in the back of the pack, and I had lots of time to observe the people I was running with. There was a sharp contrast to the gazelles I had seen run by earlier on their way to victory. The leaders are focused on winning, and you can see it in their faces and their body language. They are amazing, and their stories are generally of long hours of dedication and hard work, with support from coaches or family or both. They work hard, and it’s obvious to everyone because they are at the front.
 
The back of the pack? Well, these are the people who are just glad they are out there. Their stories (mine too) are often of a lifetime of bad, unhealthy choices followed by realization of the possibility of a better life. They work hard, harder than they ever have, and they will never receive any glory for it. But, oh, they are smiling and they are proud, and they want everyone to join them in that.
 
There was one lady who wasn’t doing much more than a jaunty speedwalk. But she was high-fiving everyone she passed and flashing a smile that stood in direct contrast to the dreary weather. Before the turnaround on the north side, during another spot where the faster runners were on the trail going opposite us, I chatted up another woman who told me she’d started running at 49 and wanted to inspire her family to change their lifestyle. She, the slower runner, was the one encouraging those who were going minutes per mile faster than she on the other side of the trail. There were several sets of friends running, helping each other through the race. I saw young runners, older runners, heavy runners and lean runners. Some seemed pained, many seemed tired, but when I smiled at or spoke to them, they all smiled back. I think they’d all tell you that the accomplishment of finishing was worth the pain it took to get there.
 
I tell you all this to say… there is a spiritual connection there. Maybe you are a back of the pack runner in the race to heaven. Maybe you just feel that way today, because you are disappointed or depressed or discouraged. It’s okay. Stay headed in the right direction. The Hebrew writer does not say “Let us run with swiftness, style, and beautiful form!” The key word in Hebrews 12:1 is endurance. Keep going.
 
KEEP GOING. If you are in the back of the pack, you probably have an incredible story to tell. You are running because you want to cross the finish line and get out of this fallen world. You may have faced miserable times with your marriage or family, had major money or drug problems, or battled an unhealthy mind or body in a way others will never know. You may feel like you are doing hand-to-hand combat with Satan himself on a daily basis. Persevere. The reward will be worth it.
 
KEEP GOING. You may look at the spiritually strong, the leaders of the pack, and think you’ll never get there. It may feel like they are running right by you and don’t even see you. But they do—I’ve read of an elite runner saying he respects slower runners MORE because we are out there for so much longer, working just as hard for twice, sometimes three times as long. And I guarantee you, Jesus sees you. The Lord sees you, and he knows exactly how you feel (Hebrews 12:3). He knows every hair on your head—and how much more so he knows how hard you are working!
 
KEEP GOING. When we feel slow, we are often in a perfect position to encourage others. Tell your story and how God is helping you to someone else. Share the race with a friend.  Bring in someone who isn’t running right now at all. Smile at someone who may seem better off than you. It could be just what they need—because swift and strong, slow and weak, they live in a fallen world, and they have a battle, too.
 
We are all struggling. We all have a reason to keep fighting. We all serve a God who wants us to make it across the finish line. So lay aside whatever is holding you back, lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees (Heb. 12:12), and run toward Him.
 
“Count it all joy, my brothers and sisters, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” James 1:2-4
 
 
 

Last week, those I worship with and I were challenged to set some real, tangible goals to help us go into the world and make disciples this year. Foundationally, that means knowing and loving Jesus, well. Two suggestions to help along those lines that really resonated with me were to 1) Focus on one gospel this year, reading it entirely one time each month, and 2) Copy that gospel on paper this year. I did a scripture-copying challenge in November and I can't tell you how helpful it was to mull over scripture as I put pen to paper, so I latched on to that one. Ben, who preaches for us, said he'll be spending the year in Luke. Since it's been awhile since I've focused on Luke, and since I figure he'll naturally be preaching more from it, I decided I'll do that too. Reading it once a month is simple enough--but how do you tackle copying more than 1100 verses? With a plan, of course. So I came up with one and I'm sharing it below. 52 weeks, with verses for each day of those weeks--it's actually just an average of three verses a day. And I know, I know--it's already January 12! But if you're a stickler about finishing by December 31, you'll just need to add a verse or two over the next couple of weeks to be in line for the end of the year. I can't tell you how humbling and uplifting it was just to do a cursory glance at Luke while I put the list together. I'm excited to dig deeper into it as I copy it this year. I hope this is a blessing to you--please use it and share it as you see a need. And if you have any questions about the method or what you find in Luke--by all means, let me know! I'm excited to hear what you see in the scripture, too.

In Him,
Lindsay

P.S. Someone asked what I plan to use to write Luke in. I'm going to use one of these journals, which is portable and sturdy, but you can use plain ol' lined paper if you so desire.

“I give you thanks, O Lord, with my whole heart; before the gods I sing your praise.” Psalm 138:1
 
Last week, shortly after I posted my theme for 2016, I had a younger woman ask me, “How do you do that? How do fill your heart with gratitude?” It was not entirely incredulous, I think she was just asking for some practical advice on how to rid our lives of discontentment. I generally figure for every person who asks a question out loud, there are probably a few more silently wondering the same thing, so I decided I’d take a minute and explain a few things I find helpful in practicing gratitude.

1. Be aware of when discontentment is creeping in. Proverbs 4:23 says “Keep your heart with all vigilance, for from it flow the springs of life.” We have to watch out for our heart and guide it back. Case in point: I had planned to start back to school Monday after three wonderful weeks off for the holidays. But Life happened, and the school room that I’d intended to organize was still in shambles. So I decided to let go of my goal and spend another day cleaning. As I did, I found myself growing grumpier and grumpier. “We needed to start back to school,” I told myself. “There’s so much clutter. Why do we have so much stuff? How will I ever get on top of the clutter?” and so on and so forth. The more I looked around, the more unhappy I became. Thankfully, I recognized what was happening and took few minutes to think about what was going on, to try to find the gratitude.
2. Watch your mouth. Prov. 17:27 says that “Whoever restrains his words has knowledge, and he who has a cool spirit is a man of understanding.” That’s not an isolated idea, by the way. Both the Old and New Testament are full of instruction that basically boils down to: “Don’t talk so much.” Our culture will say that everything needs to be aired in order to get affirmation and to vent things. But the Bible says otherwise. Seeking wise, Godly counsel on a matter is encouraged by the Lord (Proverbs 15:22, 20:18, 24:6), but venting is not a scriptural concept and is in fact, greatly discouraged. Proverbs 10:19 says that “when words are many, transgression is not lacking.” In other words, the more we talk, the more likely we are to sin! Yikes! We need to check our motivations in talking about problems. I actually sent a Vox to a friend in the middle of the de-clutter. Towards the end, I realized I was getting precariously close to complaining, and that’s when I knew I needed to stop and re-think things. Giving a voice to our areas of discontentment can make us dwell on things we ought not, and can seem to legitimize problems that are not as big as they may seem. When in doubt, don’t talk. If it’s legitimate, you’ll probably still have the chance to say it later. If you must vent for ventings sake, I suggest you do it to yourself, or to God, who has always helped me to see things more clearly.
   
3. Find the gratitude (even if it takes work). “Be thankful” is often spouted off without a lot of thought behind it, and it can come of as trite. I can’t stand things that are trite, so when I get this way I need to really consider what part of the situation I am thankful for.  Int this case, it wasn’t going to be as simple as “Welp, first world problems! At least you have enough! Be grateful you don’t live in Haiti!” That’s all well and good and even true. But the reality is, too much useless stuff is a burden and an energy suck. What finally clicked for me is that what I have to be grateful for is actually three-fold. I have the good sense to realize that it needs to go, the healthy emotional state that allows me to say goodbye to physical things that serve little purpose, and the time to devote to getting rid of it. Those are true gifts that not everyone has. THAT’S what I needed to be grateful for, but it took some work to realize it.
4. Give thanks to the one who gave you what you are thankful for. Here’s how to make the gratitude you’ve found stick: Express it to the Creator. Stop, get down on your knees and pray! Give him specific thanks for the aspect you’ve found to be grateful for. Thank him for quelling your discontentment, and pray that he’ll protect you from it in the future. That’s the kind of talking that will help you displace discontentment with gratitude.

 
I hope this is helpful… It’s a small example, but small discontentments grow if we don’t displace them. Let me know if you have had similar experiences, have additional advice, or if you need help finding the gratitude in a situation.

In Him,
Lindsay